You know what? When I was asked this question back in December by an up and coming…..in fact, probably already HERE, Artist, my response was:
Her interested gaze flickered and died.
I tried to shrug this off and made a comment along the lines of being a domestic slave but I may as well have just switched the off button on myself.
Although I cannot claim that I am particularly interesting or brilliant, I have never before had to answer that question with that response.
The fact is, in the world that is not motherhood, I don’t do anything.
Or do I?
This got me thinking:
-is it so bad to just be a mother? Not if that is what you want; if that is something you do well (ahem); if that is something you find totally fulfilling.
-Do I just want to be seen just as a mother? No.
-Why should I care how I am seen? Now, on the whole, I don’t but I also hate to be overlooked (4th child out of 8 – explains that one).
I’ll discuss this again (no doubt, relent-less-ly).
A new dawn
Now, this is what I do, most mornings:
I see the dawn (sometimes).
‘This will be the day that I get fit, become intelligent, learn French, German, Italian, English grammar, good manners, learn to be a fabulous cook (yep, never happen in a day, will it?), will have a spotless and organised house (again, never happen in a day, month, year, decade), will be a faultless parent, charming and supportive friend, will begin (again) my marathon training, will put all of my 7 gazillion photos into photo albums………and so on.
As I look out at the sun setting, I slump down onto the (dirty) kitchen table and am glad that I achieved:
-remembering to pick up the kids, dirty pants, dirty towels, burned the dinner.
“A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.”
― Winston Churchill
Ok – just realised that Thursday is my blogging day. Lucky you, dear Readers, you might get two dollops of ME this week.